quick

with everything in this house lately, things are done quickly. if you procrastinate, it never gets done because the earth is just spinning way to fast in avenson land to ever catch up. I just peeked inside my room and currently, you are wide awake, laying in bed. i need just one more cup of coffee, my love, and then i will join you.

Feats of GREATNESS
1. Smiling to anyone and everyone who encounters you. They LOVE you and want to eat you up :)
2. Your buoyant laugh. It starts off low and rises to the top with a squealing style
3. Your beginnings of trying to roll over. it will happen very soon. both you and simon loved to sleep on your belly and you are beginning to show that you will go from back to tummy any time
4. Looking in the mirror with mommy, you notice the little boy staring back at you and you play this shy individual - cooing a little bit and then hiding your little head under my neck. You also smile and laugh at this new friend of yours.
5. toleration of being on your own. i can put you in the swing for about 5 - 10 minutes now. this allows me to 'quickly' get something done before I pick you back up again.
6. Mrs. Berlin picked you up the other day and as we talked, you settled right into her shoulder and fell asleep. she didn't want to give you up and even pretended to walk inside her house for the remainder of the evening.
7. Your acceptance of anybody and everybody around you - i find this fascinating and hope it plays out in your future. it will be fun to watch.

side story:
you, daddy and mommy went out the other night. daddy and mommy were discussing 'smart phone' technology (yes, only the most romantic conversation with a computer nerd). after our conversation, we were discussing how 'smart phone' technology will almost be like 8-track tapes from the late 60's and early 70's. they are obsolete (a collectors item) right now. Record players, dial telephones, manual televisions with rabbit ears, etc. Our new 'smart phone' technology that we are talking about and getting giddy about the possibilities will be such an archaic development when you are....well, we will see. how old will you be when we smirk at our smart phone, sitting in a box of things to toss.

Second cup of coffee is almost complete and you are still content. thank you

Before I Go To Sleep

Sidney - through my yawns, i make myself write to you. I have been neglectful, to say the least and i apologize with body and mind.

you are asleep at the moment and will wake up soon. we will join together and share in our nightly moment with the other. your smile will bring me peace and your soft and graceful cooing will melt my heart.

lately, you have been practicing laughing. It is a joy to listen to you inhale your giggles. You are now three months of age and have enjoyed walks around purgatory park, library visits with your siblings, picnics with your family and countless car rides - taking your brothers and sister places of entertainment.

I have to mention, before i fall asleep, that right now, Sting in playing in your room, Just like your brother Perry, your favorite lullaby seems to be from Sting. You are quieted instantly when it comes on.

i love you and i look forward to your awakening in an hour or so.

Youll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
Youll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we walk in the fields of gold

So she took her love
For to gaze awhile
Upon the fields of barley
In his arms she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold

Will you stay with me, will you be my love
Among the fields of barley
Well forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we lie in the fields of gold

See the west wind move like a lover so
Upon the fields of barley
Feel her body rise when you kiss her mouth
Among the fields of gold
I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that Ive broken
But I swear in the days still left
Well walk in the fields of gold
Well walk in the fields of gold

Many years have passed since those summer days
Among the fields of barley
See the children run as the sun goes down
Among the fields of gold
Youll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in the fields of gold
When we walked in the fields of gold
When we walked in the fields of gold

Sidney - you are presently laying to my left at 9:26 at night. you are finally asleep. this afternoon has been tough on you and you have been crying off and on - even when i would try to nurse you, you would break out in cries. i put you in your crib and you lasted a short while. i came and got you and put you in my arms and carried you to my bed. you fell asleep instantly and you are still asleep. last night, i went and got you around 1am, brought you to bed because i was very tired (as i am now) and nursed you back to sleep. i had 3cm left of the bed to sleep on and of course, i could have moved you over, but i didn't. i let you sleep - and i barely had enough room for myself. this reminds me of your dad because sometimes he will act in the same way -- with me. i am off on a non attractive verbage tangent.

updates: smiling all the time. beginning a cute little laugh. staring contests -- you win! talking with new language with great passion. sleeping sporadically throughout the day. growing into a very big boy. 16 pounds at the moment.

okay - you are beginning to get restless. i should go. i love you sooooooo much!

1. beginning to smile
2. beginning to coo and gurgle
3. sleeping for longer periods of time
4. weight 11 - 12 pounds
5. still love to be held - favorite place to be
6. brothers and sister are interacting more with you - as you begin to focus on them

Tonight i escaped. I intended to get out and actually write about your life. your 5 weeks of life. It did not exactly happen and presently, you are at my side on my bed, sound asleep.

You have been with us for 5 weeks. you are one vocal baby. you let everyone know that you are around and that your little lungs are in great working form. there is no denying my passionate and unending love for you; but there have been a couple of trying times my little son.

two days ago, i was able to dress you in the 0-3 month clothing. upon arriving home (at 6 pounds 14 ounces), daddy and aunt robin had to go out to target and buy you all new clothing because you did not fit into anything. You are now close to 11 pounds and fitting nicely into your new digs.

each night, around 8pm, you and I retreat down the hall to mommy's room and say good night to the rest of the world. you stay in my bed until morning. this is my favorite part of day and there are times when the day is bright, i say, "you just have until 8pm and it is you and sidney time"

you have yet to smile, but i am anticipating it being very soon.
Good night kisses
Mommy

sidney hans

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