Sidney - you are presently laying to my left at 9:26 at night. you are finally asleep. this afternoon has been tough on you and you have been crying off and on - even when i would try to nurse you, you would break out in cries. i put you in your crib and you lasted a short while. i came and got you and put you in my arms and carried you to my bed. you fell asleep instantly and you are still asleep. last night, i went and got you around 1am, brought you to bed because i was very tired (as i am now) and nursed you back to sleep. i had 3cm left of the bed to sleep on and of course, i could have moved you over, but i didn't. i let you sleep - and i barely had enough room for myself. this reminds me of your dad because sometimes he will act in the same way -- with me. i am off on a non attractive verbage tangent.

updates: smiling all the time. beginning a cute little laugh. staring contests -- you win! talking with new language with great passion. sleeping sporadically throughout the day. growing into a very big boy. 16 pounds at the moment.

okay - you are beginning to get restless. i should go. i love you sooooooo much!